You know, I thought as time went on that I would get stronger and life would be easier. But for some reason I feel like I'm getting weaker and weaker without her. I miss her so much, it literally hurts. I miss talking to her, I miss hearing her voice, I miss her calling me Baby. I thought I was a strong person, but I cry at least once a day for her, and I'm positive my kids think I'm crazy talking to someone who never answers me. I literally have to exhaust myself during the day so I can fall asleep at night.
I just want my mom back....She's all I see when I close my eyes.
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Hi Lindsey,
ReplyDeleteI know that it's hard and I won't tell you it will get easier, but you will learn to be kinder to yourself and look at things differently. Everything you are feeling right now is what you're supposed to be feeling. There are things for you to learn right now. Someday you will be called on to help someone your care for go through this very same thing and you will do so with the love and grace that your mother gave you through this. Someone will be so thankful to have you as their friend.
My father died 20 yrs. ago last week. At the time, I was 28 and I told myself that I was too young to lose a parent so I remember well how you feel. Capture her voice and her memory the best you can....it tries to slip away after a while.
Be so very glad that you see her when you close your eyes. Those are the things that God gives us to comfort us. Imagine if we didn't have them.
I'm sorry to say that there will never come a day when you can say "I'm over it". We don't "get over" people. But, the time will come when it doesn't hurt so much.
Praying for you...